Hi peeps!
My Spotify Debut song „Smile“ is out now and it has been great sharing the finished work with my friends, family and anyone, who’d listen.
Celebrating its release I would like to share my feelings and thoughts behind „Smile“ with you.
It is one of the songs born out of pure overwhelming emotion. When I wrote this tune, I felt so helpless, I didn’t know how else to handle my feelings. I’ve been defeated and emotionally broken by the person in question many times, but this time it made me fear for the loss of a big part of my daily life via our whole shared friend group. I was afraid to lose a dozen good friends and while I know that friendships come and go, anyone who knows me can testify that I don’t handle change well or… at all.
The message I want to give to everyone who listens is summed up in the song’s most important line „Forgiving ain’t forgetting„. It means that there is a difference between ending a friendship and hating someone for the rest of your life. When you realize that a certain relationship hurts you more than it gifts you, you have a good reason to end things, especially when you have tried working through it multiple times. It is okay to set boundaries and say, „Hey, we might have this and that in common, but I cannot be your friend anymore.“
I have always been against feuds. There isn’t only a positive and negative attitude towards another person; there’s also a neutral one. You don’t have to like a person. But that doesn’t mean that you have to make fun of them or start a personal war. Instead, part ways, and if you come across them again, great them and move on.
My mum used to tell me, „Hatred is like eating rats poison and hoping the rat dies.“ You might inconvenience the other person a bit, but what hatred truly does is harm you instead. The Bible says, „[…] do not let the sun go down on your anger […]“ (Eph 4:26). Forgiveness is an important part of my faith. It is hard and it is a challenge, but it’s important, not for the other person, but for you! When I don’t forgive someone, I am unable to properly talk to them, because all I see is how they wronged me and how angry I am at them.
In conclusion, I want to forgive those who have wronged me, but not submit myself to the pain a full-on friendship would be. Because „Forgiving ain’t forgetting“
Your Angel ♡